Cape Town Diary: October 12. By Brendan Ferriter
Story posted October 15, 2001
So, it's another beautiful day outside, and I'm inside the luxurious CBB Center writing another damn paper. Sometimes I just want to tear down the center...It's not that I really hate it here that much but we all spend way too much time here because we all have a lot of papers. And that stinks. Because we could be exploring and hiking, traveling, seeing new and exciting things that we would never find in the States. Unfortunately, the program here has become (gasp) routine. Books and papers are okay for a while but (yawn) I could be at Bates doing that. Papers,papers, paper, work, work, work...I think we're all a little stressed here. When our motivation to do work has been drowned by the beautiful sunshine, it becomes really tough.
And the CBB Center is driving me crazy...I can't get away but I have to get away...but where I am going to go?...Why do I care about this work anymore...grades...I could be going to Botswana right now or Jo'burg but, I'm here...typing, typing away...it's as if Bates is following me...it's right on my tail and I want to turn around and kick it in the teeth but I don't have the guts because, for whatever reason, I care somewhat about my grades...but why? Are grades going to dictate my future? I'm in Africa, for gosh sakes... I may never get the chance to come here again...Why can't a just push the shiny red button and rebel...the sweet smell of rebellion...it's so close...it wets my tongue...yet I can only bite my tongue...and that hurts...to bite my tongue. I just want freedom...but freedom is elusive and every time I try to run and catch I realize that I am too slow...why couldn't I have been born a runner?...Then I could catch freedom and kiss its beautiful lips...but I am too slow...and my legs hurt and my mouth tastes like salt.
Maybe I just need to leave the Center for today...but, don't worry dear Center, I'll be back again tomorrow...I'll be forced to shake hands with you again dear Center...but you always play that trick on me where you shake my hand with that buzzer in your hand...and that hurts, to be shocked by that buzzer...if only freedom were easy...
Brendan Ferriter, Bates College '03
Additional information on the Cape Town program is at CBB Cape Town
Other Cape Town Diaries:
Cape Town Diary: July 3. By Julie McGee.
Cape Town Diary: July 14. By Julie McGee.
Cape Town Diary: July 27. By Kristen M. Heim.
Cape Town Diary: July 27. By Rachel Meiklejohn.
Cape Town Diary: August 6. By Paul Min.
Cape Town Diary: August 6. By Heather Finn.
Cape Town Diary: August 10. By Chris Reigeluth.
Cape Town Diary: August 13. By Kathryn Spirer.
Cape Town Diary: August 15. By Philip Drake.
Cape Town Diary: August 20. By Dana Kramer.
Cape Town Diary: August 20. By Noah Lambie.
Cape Town Diary: August 24. By Brendan Ferriter.
Cape Town Diary: August 27. By Katie Spirer.
Cape Town Diary: August 27. By Laura Bilodeau.
Cape Town Diary: August 31. By Kristen Heim.
Cape Town Diary: Sept. 1. By Samantha Dahan.
Cape Town Diary: Sept. 4. By Julie McGee.
Cape Town Diary: Sept. 14. By Claire Cuno.
Cape Town Diary: Sept. 25. By Laura Bilodeau.
Cape Town Diary: Sept. 28. By Noah Lambie.
Cape Town Diary: Oct. 3. By Paul Min.
Cape Town Diary: Oct. 8. By Chris Reigeluth.
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